The Dark Night Of The Soul
The Dark Night
Of the Soul
Aldivan Teixeira Torres
The Dark Night of The Soul
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By:Aldivan Teixeira Torres
©2017-Aldivan Teixeira Torres
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Aldivan Teixeira Torres
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Academic Qualifications: Degree in Mathematics with specialization in the same area.
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Short Biography: Aldivan Teixeira Torres, was born in Arcoverde- PE, created the series the seer, the series sons of the light, poetry and screenplays. His literary career started at the end of 2011 with the publication of his first romance work Opposing forces – the mystery of the cave. For whatever reason, he stopped writing only resuming his career in the second half of 2013. Since then he never stopped. He hopes that his writing will contribute to the Pernambuco and Brazilian culture, arousing the pleasure of reading in those that do not yet have the habit. His motto is “For literature, equality, fraternity, justice, dignity and the human being honour for ever”.
“The dark night of soul” is the continuation of “The seer”. The main character returned to a mountain in search of answers for a troubled period of its life, moments who forgot of God, of its principles, losing itself in sins. In the mountain, “The seer” had contact with two “great beings”, who guided him to knowledge. This book is a passage full of dangers, pirates, a great adventure in the sea, bringing us reflections and questionings, for which we wonder: Would be possible that a criminal recovers, and, really would find the peace for its crimes? He would find forgiveness in itself? He would find the happiness? Or would be only an illusion?”
Dedication
I dedicate this second book of the series “The seer” (o vidente) to all those people, who directly or indirectly have encouraged me to the realization of my dreams, especially the publication of my first book entitled “Opposed Forces: The mystery of the cave”. Apart from those, I must remember the creator who gave me the gifts and my family that although did not encourage me in the beginning of my career were always there by my side at the good and bad times. Let us embark in a new adventure together!
The two sons
There was a man who had two sons; the younger one said to his father:
“Father, give me my share of the estate”
So, he divided the property between them. Not long after that, the young son got together all he had and set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. So, he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. He longed to fill his stomach with the pods the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything. When he came to his senses, he said:
“How many of my father’s hired servants had food to spare, and here I am starving to death! I will set out and will go back to my father and say to him:
Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me one of your hired servants”. So, he got up and went to his father.
But he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.
The son said to him, Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.
But the father said to his servants, Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the fattened cow and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate. For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and he is found. So, they began to celebrate.
Lucas 15,11-24
Summary
The Dark Night
Of the Soul
Dedication
The two sons
Introduction
Post-cave
The taxi
The path to the mountain
The first day at the mountain
The dark night of the soul
The first meeting with the guardian lady
Waiting for the challenge
Pride
Another day
Greed
Reflections about the challenge
Lust
Back to the cabin
Meeting the Hindu
Perfecting
Anger
Learning about anger
Envy
Learning about envy
Important reflections
Gluttony and sloth
Farewell to the Hindu
The journey
The first day of the journey
Captain’s stories
The mermaids
The discovery
The tempest
The clash
A day without hope
Finally, light
The island
The palace
Preparation
The theft
The rape
The terrorism
The Eldorado
The prison
The wedding
The first day after the wedding
Inspirational dream
The routine and the lottery
Back to normality
The lottery result and the decision
Travelling and arriving at Pesqueira
The auction
The meeting
The answer
The beginning of the tomato cultivation
The first friendships
Plenty of rain and sun
The pregnancy period
The birth
Important decision
Fifteen years later
The party and the disagreement
The revelation
Post-revelation
A few months later
A new phase
Trip to Recife
The preparatory course
A day at the beach
The party
The next day
New meeting
The park
The theatre
The period of a year
The entrance exam
Failure and victory
The abandonment
Life on the street
The crimes continue
Tentative of homicide
The meeting
The favela
The involvement
A decisive fact
The promotion
Living the “dark night”
A new important fact
A new adaptation
The psychologist
The shelter
The first session
Reflections of life
The second session
The detachment from material things
The third session
The discovery of a new love
The prison
The conviction
Thirty years of reclusion
The end of the vision
The exit from the island
The return trip
Farewell
Meeting the guardian lady and the Hindu again
Conclusion.
Introduction
The “Dark night of the soul” can be defined as a critical look at a very difficult phase which all of us sooner or later will go through. It is about a period favorable to condemnation or, incredible it may seem to an unusual salvation of the person.
To achieve the latter, it is necessary to pinpoint the exact moment to take action in face of the crisis to enable us to free ourselves from the darkness and definitely enter the bosom of goodness. Along this book it will be shown the key elements to do that and be successful. Apart from these characteristics, the text will also show how to coexist with the two existing forces of the Universe and being able to control them adequately.
I would like also to highlight that the book is aimed at all the people that of one reason or another still have not found their way in life, but have not lost hope of changing and who knows maybe obtain the desired peace that we all search for. Further with this book, I hope to contribute to the moral and spiritual evolution of the human being. Enjoy a good reading and until next time, God willing.
Post-cave
Hi there, reader, how long has it been! It is about a one year since I have entered the cave of despair and have fulfilled my dream of starting my career as a writer and by default became a seer, a super gifted being. Now, I feel ready to pursue my dreams. Before that, though, I will in short tell what has happened to me in the period post-cave. Sometime after climbing Ororubá Mountain, meeting the guardian, the youth and the little boy and still facing the ghost and the challenges, I returned to my parents’ home, confident, victorious, happy and willing to resume the past life. That was exactly what I did and with dedication in the work and studies I finished university and got new ideas to continue my career. This was a necessary and important moment, which gave me immense satisfaction, because my efforts were rewarded. However, I was still not completely fulfilled, because I still haven’t reached the realization of the bigger dream: To see my series “The seer” at the top of the literature world. Maybe I am being very pretentious, but this is the way I feel, in the end, I am a seer transformed by the miraculous powers of the cave of despair, the most dangerous cave in the world. Well, let destiny decide it.
With the success of the first task that was to reunite the “Opposing Forces”, to control them and helping somebody to find itself, I can say that I feel ready for the next adventure. Thinking about that, I made the following decision: To return to the sacred ground of the mountain of Orobubá and meet the guardian so that she may help me with the greatest objective of this book, which is to understand the dangerous and mysterious “Dark night of the soul”.
The decision made, I start to pack my suitcases, separating the most needed objects: Some clothes, my crucifix, my Bible, my pocket watch, a notebook, essential toiletries and books to keep me busy during and after the journey. After organizing all that, I go to the kitchen with the intention of saying goodbye to the family. Finding my mother, I hug her and begin the difficult dialogue:
—Dear mother, I came to tell you that I have decide to return to the village of Mimoso with the aim to achieve the second stage of my critical, spiritual, moral and human improvement. It is a strictly necessary journey so that I can finally understand what has happened to me some time ago, my dark night of the soul, and this is a common situation with all the mortals.
—Another trip to Mimoso? Could it be that you cannot see how crazy this is, my son? Your place is by my side. Why is this dark night so important to the point of you wanting to abandon me?
— I am going to Mimoso searching for my dreams. The first stage was accomplished, but it is in the past and now I am looking for new challenges. I believe that the answer lies in the mountains and therefore I am going there. Mama try to understand, you have raised me for the world and not for you. Remember that I am the seer, the sole human being that survived the cave of despair, and I have my responsibilities to the readers and the world. Instead of trying to convince me not to go, you should encourage me, because I have made up my mind. In any way I wanted to find you to give you a hug.
Having said that, I went up to my mother and we hugged each other. This gesture, tender and vigorous, has recuperated my energies, and it was exactly what I needed to face the next challenges, including this one. After hugging her, I finally say farewell to my mother and walk to the doors with tears in my eyes. In the meantime, I mentally analyse my plans for the trip. What will it be awaiting me? I didn’t have the faintest idea. I was only sure that they would be revitalizing and instigating experiences. Reader, let’s carry on together.
The taxi
After a while, I finally leave the house. Immediately I start looking for a comfortable means of transport, quiet and economical to get to Mimoso. I analyse all the possibilities and end up deciding that the most viable was a taxi, because the distance wasn’t so far (24 Km). The decision taken, I make use of my resources to catch the first one passing by. After some attempts, I finally caught one. The car stops, I get in, close the door and make myself comfortable. At this moment, I sense that I am being scrutinised by the driver, even before he asks me:
—Where to, sir?
I look at him and simply answer:
—We are going to Mimoso, a place near the Ororuba Mountain, a sacred mountain.
Having said this, he looked at me with disdain, saying:
—Well, I know very well where Mimoso is, let’s go. However, I didn’t know that the mountain of Ororuba was sacred. Tell me straight away about this story.
Without wanting to lose too much time at that stage, I promise:
—It is along story. I will tell it during the trip. Can we go? I am anxious to arrive at my destination.
He agrees with me, although not happy, and then the car leaves at a medium speed. In the meantime, now and again, the driver looks at me. What will he think of me? I think for a while and come to the conclusion that his reaction is natural, after all few know about the secret of the cave. However, I am not any fool so that he can treat me in such a way. As a result, I decide to tell the truth.
—Driver, I am ready to explain. What is your name?
— My name is Aurelio and yours?
—My name is Aldivan, but you can call me the seer or son of God. I am going to elaborate so that you can believe in the statement I made a while ago.
—I am ready. You can tell me.
—Approximately a century ago the Xukuru tribes were at war because of the ruses of a sorcerer called Kualopu. For a long time, there were many battles fought and thus the Xukuru nation was in danger of disappear. Thinking about it a kind sorcerer decide to intervene. He made a pact with the forces of the Universe, offering his life in exchange for the end of the war. After that pact a miracle occurred. The sorcerer was killed and the war ended. The sorcerer paid the price and peace was restored. From that day on the mountain of Ororuba became sacred and the cave of despair, located on its top, received miraculous powers capable of turning any dream into reality, provided the dreams are not selfish. It is the second time I have got the pleasure to live on the mountain.
—Very interesting. You say that this is the second time you go there. How was the first time?
— It was a year ago. I was a poor dreamer in search of knowing and controlling my “Opposing forces”. With that objective I climbed the mountain, reached the top, met the guardian (a miraculous being knowing profound mysteries), accomplished challenges, met the ghost, the youth and the little boy, and finally I entered the cave. This last experience changed my life completely, because I became the seer, a being able to surmount the time and space barriers and omniscient through its visions. With my new powers, I could understand the most profound feelings and intentions of other people. Meanwhile, I still cannot say that I am ready. Life is an eternal learning in which the cave was only a stage. Now I am ready for new challenges and therefore my life is back. This time I want to understand my dark night of the soul, the significance of everything I have lived two years ago. I believe I will find answers in the mountain or at least I will begin a new journey.
—Your story is really impressive. I believe you, because I could feel your sincerity. I only did not understand one thing, what is the meaning of this expression, dark night of the soul?
—At this moment, I myself don’t know the complete meaning of dark night. But I can give a basic notion, it is the moment we detach ourselves from Universe benign forces to only think of our vanities. This moment is critical, being able to destroy or to save a human being’s soul, depending of the case.
—I think I understand. I have already passed through the dark night when I was unfaithful to my wife with ladies of the night. When she left me, I realized the true value, I repented and we were able make up. From then on, I was a new man.
—What happened to you I can guarantee it was a lapse. Indeed, the dark night is more profound than we can imagine. I hope to find the answers that I so much need.
—Good luck with your search. I can see you an educated lad, intelligent and determined. Determined people always reach their objectives.
—Thank you. Now I need to meditate and have a rest. Don’t wake me up until we have reached our destination.
Aurelio reassures me and then I concentrate on my inner, forgetting all the preoccupations. Gradually, the body relaxes and the extra-sensorial senses are awakened. Soon I start seeing distorted and confusing images. A while later, rocked by the strength of the thoughts, I see myself in an enormous plain by all sides. I am exactly in the middle of this place. From the right side emerges a scorching and strong sun. It cleanses all my impurities and gives me a sensation of peace and freedom. At the same time, from the left side appears a thick and dark cloud, bringing a heavy atmosphere, full of negative feelings and thoughts. This force is capable of condemning all those nearby, those absorbed by its shadow. Next to it I feel guilty, even without having had a fair judgement. The two forces are getting near all the time, producing in me the meeting of the two “Opposing forces”, that some time ago it seemed I had controlled. Soon after, between the two forces, an angel appears and it carries on the face the mark of the word choice. I invoke it, and the shock between the two opposing forces stops, at least temporarily, leaving me a little more relaxed. Even so, I am not free of the possible interactions of the dark night, which it seems to be part of any and every individual. After the invocation, the angel, the sun, the dark cloud, the scenery, everything disappear and gradually I am becoming conscientious. Finally, I wake up. I feel I am in the same place, inside of a taxi in motion. What will all this mean? In order to find answers, I look out of the window and I see that I am almost at my destination. I am happy, I am closer to get some answers.
The path to the mountain
Finally, the car arrives at the destination and stops. Immediately, I grab my suitcase and I get out with conviction. Leaving, I start to imagine all the aspects of the village center. At first sight, it seems very quiet and cosy just like the last time. I start going forward and some known people come to meet me, trying to help. I thank them and straight away we start chatting. After a short while, I say goodbye, using as an excuse important and urgent business at the mountain. The walk restarts, carrying the heavy suitcase and the undesirable preoccupations. What will await me after climbing the mountain for the second time? How would the dear guardian lady be? Those were some the questions filling my brain.
I carry on walking and for the first time I feel tired. The circumstances make me stop for a while and again an anguish invades my being completely. What was happening to me? Where was the spirit, the faith and the energy of the adventurer, who started his dream a year ago? At that moment, everything made me believe that I was no longer the same person. Before total despair, I decide to analyse impartially the situation. In a short and intense period post-cave, situations quite adverse have occurred, which made me rethink about who I was. However, at that moment I conclude that it was necessary to return to myself, the dreamer. Without it, I would certainly not be able to face all the obstacles that perhaps separated me from fully understanding the dark night of the soul. Thinking about that, I inhale and exhale deeply searching for the energy capable of guiding me, and when I believe I have reached it, I walk again. At this moment, I feel already more relaxed and comforted, although I am only at the foot of the mountain.
I walk a little away from the bottom and the voices of the mountain are starting to act. I feel confused and dizzy, because they are really strong. Like the other time, they try to persuade me to give up. Apart from the voices, my sixth sense is submitted to a sequence of images. In them, I see fire, pain, inhumane actions, betrayals, the meeting of the opposing forces and the dark night of the soul. For a moment, I lost conscience and I see myself in the Brazil colonial times. I see the beginning, the middle and end of everything. In this retrospective vision, I see the first contact of the innocent owners of Brazil, the Indians, with the foreigners that behind their amicable appearance hide their second intentions. They are welcomed, and without the hosts suspecting, they try in every way to find the riches. In their first attempt, they don’t find what they are looking for and withdraw. Later on, they come back and brutally enslave the Indians, explore their natural resources and this causes one the greatest ethnic massacres of all times. This represents the fire of the dark night of the soul, a fire that destroyed lives, dreams and hopes.
At other moment I see myself in Nazis concentration camps, in the Second World War. In this vision, it is very well clear the aspect of the oppressors’ dark night, because they act with falsehood, cunning, cold and evil without limits. I am subjected to very strong scenes of violation of the human rights and this makes me burst into tears. How can there human beings, image of the Creator, be capable of such atrocities and with such hate? People like that, nationalists and prejudiced, that make Satan look like an angel indeed. This represents the pain of the dark night of the soul and is a path without return.
A moment later, I am carried away to an explosion of vegetation, more precisely the amazon forest. I fly over the area and at a certain time I see a large clearing in the forest. I decide to land to investigate. With little surprise, I meet men with various type of tools, aiming at felling the greatest amount of trees possible, in an area which ought to be for environment conservation. The situation makes me cry again and I curse the source of power and wealth which are the cause of all this. In another place, not too far away, the dark night is completed with the indiscriminate killing of the fauna. I got enraged with the situation and ask myself: What right does mankind have to act in this way? We are not the owners of this world, but only passing guests that should respect it and preserve it. At this rate, we will not even have a future for the next generations. This represents the inhumane actions of the dark night.