What was it about this man that made her feel so much? And so strangely? As if she were alive for the first time? Before she could think about it, Night Hawk tore away and kept his back to her, striding on his moccasins to where the sergeant stood in the shade of the buggy.
“Sergeant,” he said in a cool, even tone. “Please see Miss Lafayette safely to the fort.”
He was sending her away? She climbed to her feet. “I came to purchase a mare and that’s what I intend to do.”
“Either Josh Ingalls or Lars Holmberg may have an older mare for sale. Sergeant, take Miss Lafayette to see one of them.” Night Hawk didn’t look at her. It was as if he saw not a woman but a child too young to be bothered with.
He whistled to his dog, which leaped to his side, and strode off toward the fields.
“Come, let’s try Mr. Ingalls.” Sergeant James held out his gloved hand, waiting to help her into the buggy. “No doubt he will be more cooperative. Night Hawk is a loner. He doesn’t take to people butting into his business.”
“But I want to buy a horse from him.” Only him.
“Ingalls is a good man. He’ll give you a fair price for an old, gentle mount. Something for a young lady to learn on.”
She was getting tired of being a young lady. She was a woman, capable and intelligent, and she wasn’t going to let a man who handled horses the way he did refuse to negotiate with her.
Determined, she set off across the stable yard. The sunlight was warm on her face and the tall seed-heavy grass snapped against her skirts. Grazing horses lifted their muzzles to study her.
Where had he gone? She scanned the lush green acreage of grazing pastures and growing crops, all neatly fenced.
There he was—near the tree line. He was nothing more than a shadow against the dark woods, but she’d recognize his proud profile and the set of his wide shoulders anywhere.
She watched his spine stiffen as she drew nearer. He deliberately kept his back to her as he lifted an ax from a thick stump.
Let him try to ignore her. She would show him. She wasn’t a feeble-minded female who could be pushed around.
The dog let out a friendly woof and wagged his tail in greeting until a low word from Night Hawk commanded him to sit. A few dozen horses grazing in the field lifted their sculpted heads in unison and trotted eagerly toward the split-rail fence. Their coats gleamed in the sunshine—an array of rich browns, vibrant reds, pure whites and deep blacks.
A few of those horses were mares. Wait—every single one of them was. Anger kindled, and she could barely contain it. To think that he’d lied to her!
“You said you had no mares,” she challenged. “But here’s a pasture full of them.”
“They are not for sale.”
“That’s right. Because you won’t sell to a woman.”
He lifted the ax high and sank it deep into a tree already on the ground. Steel drove into wood, and the log split its entire length. “I never do business with women.”
“Then let’s pretend I’m not a woman just for the few minutes it takes for me to pick out a mare and pay for her.”
He lowered his ax. Instead of answering, he narrowed his eyes to study her. “Are you sure that you’re the colonel’s daughter? I expected someone obedient and well behaved.”
“I am well behaved. But don’t make the mistake of thinking any woman ought to be obedient. I suppose that’s how men think, a woman would be easier to manage if she wore a bridle and had a bit in her mouth. Just like these horses.”
“What if I agreed?” One brow crooked.
“Then you, sir, are not what I had hoped.” She fisted her hands, not sure now if he was serious or if he was teasing her. “No wonder you’re alone. No woman in her right mind would have you.”
“Maybe I have three wives who obey my every command.”
“Yes, but there’s no one else here. If you have three wives, they obviously came to their senses and left you.”
Now he laughed, rich and deep like summer thunder rolling in from the horizon. “I do think women and horses should be treated the same.”
And he could say that with sincerity in his voice and integrity warming his eyes? She said, “You’ve finally convinced me. I don’t want to do business with you.”
How could she have been so wrong about him? Marie marched through the grasses, disappointment whipping through her.
“I’ve changed my mind, too,” he called out. “I will sell you one of my mares.”
“One of your old, obedient, submissive mares?”
“If that’s what you wish.”
“You have no notion of what I wish for.” Now she was really mad. He mocked her? Or was he amused by her? And what of the man with the gentle hands and iron strength she’d seen last night? Who tended wounded horses with care and made her feel alive? “I know what I don’t want, and that’s a horse from you.”
“Too late. One has already chosen you.” Night Hawk gestured toward the field.
A mare walked on the other side of the fence, her ears pricked and her mane and tail dancing in the wind. Her big brown eyes held a shining question.
“I told you, I’m no longer interested.”
“She’s interested in you.”
“The sergeant will take me somewhere else. Somewhere I won’t have to be insulted.”
Night Hawk’s gait whispered behind her, and the mare’s hooves clomped on the hard-packed ground alongside her.
Don’t look at either of them, Marie commanded herself.
“It’s said it’s best when the horse chooses her master.” Night Hawk caught up with Marie, adjusting his long-legged stride to match hers. “When one heart searches for another and finds its match. Look at her.”
Marie tingled at his words and at the depth of them. “I’m not looking for a submissive horse. I’m looking for spirit.”
“You misunderstood me.” His hand curled around her elbow, branding-iron hot and iron solid. “I meant what I said. A woman and a horse should be treated the same—with respect. I will only sell a horse to a rider who understands that.”
“Is that why you wouldn’t sell me a mare earlier?”
“No.” He released her and stepped away. “Look at the mare.”
She was beautiful. The mare’s red coat gleamed like fire beneath the sun’s touch, and a narrow stripe of white delicately marked her well-shaped nose.
A spark of affection flickered to life in Marie’s heart, just like that.
The sorrel reached above the rail. Marie laid her fingers on the mare’s nose. She would never want any other horse.
“I can’t believe it.” The sorrel caught a bit of lace on Marie’s sleeve with her teeth. “She’s mine. My very own horse!”
“She’s not broken to ride.”
“She seems gentle. Could you train her for me?” Laughing, the sweetest trill of music and delight, Marie extricated her sleeve from the mare’s teeth. “I’m in love with her already.”
No, his conscience warned him.
Yes, his heart answered. “I could train her to a buggy in no time.”
“No, I don’t want to drive her. I want to ride on her back and race the winds.”
Night Hawk was enchanted. The colonel’s daughter burned with the light of a thousand suns, this quiet softly shaped woman with a will as strong as oak. A longing burst inside him so fierce it left him weak. Far too weak.
“Please, don’t tell my father. He has very rigid ideas of how women should behave, but I’m not his little girl anymore. I make my own choices.”
No. That should be his answer. “It will be our secret.”
Her smile made her too beautiful to gaze upon.
Night Hawk broke away from this woman he could never have and stared hard at the mare. “I will contact you when she’s fully trained. We’ll agree on a price then, with your father’s approval.”
“Papa had his chance. He could have chosen an old plodding mare for me to learn to ride on, but he didn’t. So I figure he doesn’t have the right to complain about whatever horse I purchase with my own savings.”
“I don’t want to anger the colonel. He’s been good to me and my people.”
“Don’t worry.” An ember of mischief glimmered within her. “I can manage my father.”
Longing speared him. It’s loneliness, he told himself. He’d been without a woman’s company for more years than he could count. All he had to do was say goodbye. Then Marie Lafayette would climb back into the buggy and drive out of his life.
“I will leave word with Sergeant James when your mare is ready,” he promised. “Good day.”
He spun on his heel. Every step he took put welcome distance between him and the colonel’s daughter.
Dainty feet padded against the dusty earth behind him. “Night Hawk.”
He should have kept walking, but he turned.
She looked like a dream with her long brown hair waving in the wind as she ran. The sky-blue fabric hugged her soft woman’s curves.
Marie smiled with the innocence of a woman who didn’t know the power she possessed over a man. “Does the mare have a name?”
He watched her slim, long-fingered hand caress over the sorrel’s white blaze with a woman’s tenderness.
The heat in his veins burned.
“I call her Kammeo.” His words sounded strangled to his own ears, yet it was the best he could do. Want swept over him like a wildfire, and he couldn’t control it.
“It’s a beautiful name. What does it mean in your language?”
There was no trace of prejudice. Only a bright curiosity and a quiet interest that left him speechless.
He couldn’t deny his attraction to her. To a woman too fine and genteel for the likes of him. He’d bet his land and every last horse he owned that Colonel Henry Lafayette wouldn’t want his precious daughter alone with a man like him.
Night Hawk hardened his heart, turned his back on her and walked away without answering her.
If she had shown abhorrence for his culture or disdain at his people’s ways, it would have been easier. So much easier to keep his back turned. To put distance between them.
But she’d been respectful. It’s a beautiful name. What does it mean? He could still hear the music of her voice and feel the bright light of her presence as he returned to the far pasture.
Trees shaded him as he lifted his ax and swung, taking his frustration out on trees that had fallen last winter.
Over the thud of the ax, he heard the squeak of the buggy’s wheels as it bounced along his rutted road. Dust lifted like fog in the air and larks playing in the grasses startled skyward.
Meka lifted his big head and howled a melancholy goodbye.
Night Hawk could feel Marie Lafayette’s gaze like a hot burning flame to his back. He worked until she’d driven past and then he stared into the cloud of dust in her wake.
Loneliness settled around him like the dust to the earth—a loneliness that ached and thrashed within the deepest places of his heart.
He had no family. No wife. No children. That was how he’d always feared his life would remain.
Maybe that was why he felt such an attraction to Marie Lafayette. That was all. Loneliness. A man’s natural yearning for a wife.
He felt warm velvet of a horse’s muzzle graze his knuckles. He hadn’t realized that he’d stopped splitting rails and was leaning against the wood fence. Kammeo, with her coat of red flame and spirit, lipped him quizzically as if asking where Marie had gone.
Kammeo. It meant one and only. It also meant soul mate. A man’s one and only love for all time.
Fate would not be so cruel, Night Hawk was certain, as to make his kammeo a white woman he was forbidden to love.
Chapter Four
The wonder of Marie’s day remained even when the front door slammed open with the force of a bullet and rattled the windowpanes in the house.
“Marie Janelle, front and center this minute!” Henry’s voice filled the house like a cannon blast.
“No need to shout, Papa.” She laid the last sweater into place in the bureau draw and pushed it closed. “I’ll be down in a minute.”
“Now.”
“When I’m finished emptying this last trunk.”
She winced at the angry drum of his boots on the floor. Not even the thick wood ceiling between them could muffle it. There was no time like the present to start standing up to him and to change their relationship.
His footsteps punched up the stairs and knelled down the hallway. Marie took a deep breath and lifted the last of her sweaters from the bottom of her trunk.
“Good evening, Papa.” She crossed to the bevel-mirrored bureau. “It doesn’t sound as if you had a pleasant day.”
“Not when I discovered you coerced my sergeant into taking you from the settlement.”
“Coerced?” Marie saw her father’s reflection in the mirror behind her. Angry tension stiffened him like a well-seasoned board, and his face was ruddy. “I merely pointed out that I would find the way on foot if I had to. The stable master refused to allow me the use of a horse and buggy. Your instructions, he said.”
“I don’t want you running off, Marie. It’s unsafe.” Soldier-fierce, he clomped into the room, and yet when she looked again in the mirror, gray gathered at his temples and marked his beard. The fall of once jet-black hair over his brow had turned completely gray.
They’d lost so much time, she and Papa. So much time to be a family.
“Papa, I didn’t mean to be difficult.” She pushed in the drawer and faced him. “I know there’s a bear threatening settlers, but I had Sergeant James with me. He was armed—”
“A musket won’t always stop a raging bear. Everyone knows that.” Henry’s anger flared but beneath it lurked something else, something harder to discern.
Marie closed her trunk lid. “As you can see, nothing happened. You don’t need to be worried after the fact.”
“Worried?” Henry sounded surprised. “I’m furious that you’d disobeyed a direct order, Marie.”
“It wasn’t direct to me. I was furious because you broke another promise.”
“I’m a busy man.”
“You’re my father, not my commanding officer.” She yanked the empty trunk from her bed and set it with an angry thunk on the floor. “I bought my own horse today, so there’s no point in you rushing to find me the mare you promised.”
“My secretary was supposed to—”
She slid the trunk with force into place beneath the second window. Papa always had his excuses and she wouldn’t listen to them. She wanted more than excuses. She wanted more than his attempts to be her father—attempts lacking heart.
She settled the trunk into place with a final thud and straightened.
Henry merely looked angrier. “I brought you out here to help me with my work. There are children who need to learn. Both the settlers’ children and the Indian children have to be prepared for the changing world awaiting them. That is what I fight for every day. Bettering the lives of the civilians I defend.”
“That’s good and fine, and I admire your principles, Papa. I always have. But I came here because my father asked me to. My father.” She marched past him, losing her temper. “I’ll be downstairs.”
He followed her out into the hall. “Marie, Mrs. Olstad is putting supper on the table. You straighten up. I want you presentable in five minutes. Major Gerard is coming—”
Not wanting to hear more, Marie flew down the stairs and through the kitchen. Ignoring Mrs. Olstad’s disapproving frown, Marie dashed outside and shut the door behind her with enough force to echo up the stairwell. It wasn’t a slam, just a statement. She wasn’t going to settle for a colonel. Not when she wanted a father.
The evening was hot and humid when she stepped out onto the porch. Sunlight played through the tips of trees, casting long shadows. The wilderness outside the tall, stout fort walls beckoned her.
This was her adventure. She’d come to Fort Tye for several reasons. Being with her father was only one of them. There were children to teach, a new world to explore. And maybe—just maybe—a love to discover.
Night Hawk. The thought of him made her bones melt. A thrilling, shivery feeling rippled through her. How angry he’d made her when she’d thought he was like so many men she’d met—all looking for a wife they could command around like her father did his soldiers.
But she’d been wrong. A woman and a horse should be treated with respect, he’d said in that voice as deep as winter. Oh, he’d been playing with her, all right, and her heart warmed with the memory.
“Miss Lafayette.” A polite baritone broke into her thoughts. Major Gerard, hat in hand, strolled down the stone path, watching her with a curious gaze. “You look lovely this evening.”
“Thank you, Major.” Marie tucked her thoughts of Night Hawk aside for later, when she was alone. Right now she had Major Gerard to deal with. “I know my father is expecting you.”
“He was good enough to invite me.” The major climbed up the steps and stopped awkwardly, holding his hat, looking uncertain. “My name is Ned. Please, may I call you Marie?”
“Of course.” There was a lot to like about the kind officer who seemed boyishly shy as he attempted a nervous smile.
“Please, come in. My father would want you to be comfortable.” Marie led the way into the parlor. “What do you drink?”
“Your housekeeper is known to have cold tea on hand for a few of us who don’t partake.” He hung his hat on the coat tree before she could offer. “I’m sorry, ma’am. I’m here so often. I report directly to your father. I oversee the training of the enlisted men.”
He was proud of his work and proud to work for her father. It was hard not to like him, but she didn’t want to give him the wrong impression. Likely as not, her father had already done enough of that. She offered Ned a seat before leaving him alone for the kitchen.
He thanked her and sat awkwardly in the upholstered wing chair near the front window.
Her temper was back, and she fought to stay calm. In the hot kitchen, she grabbed a glass from the hutch shelves. She’d come to change things between her and her father, not to have the same old battle over marrying her off.
“Marie! Leave that to Mrs. Olstad. Honestly.” Henry thundered into the kitchen. “I want you to make a good impression tonight. Ned Gerard is just the sort of man I want for you.”
“What sort is that?”
“A West Point graduate. Impeccable family name. You know I want only the best for my daughter.” Henry snatched a tomato wedge from Mrs. Olstad’s drain board. “I don’t want you to let this opportunity pass by. Living with your aunt has given you the idea that you can be happy as a spinster for the rest of your life.”
“I don’t want to be a spinster, Papa. Really.” She could be as stubborn as he could be. After all, she was his daughter.
Marie spotted a covered pitcher on the drain board and reached for it.
“Leave that to Mrs. Olstad, Marie. We can’t leave our guest waiting.”
“You go in alone, you old schemer.” Marie couldn’t summon up enough resentment to be truly angry. “I’m not going to marry him.”
“You don’t know that for certain. No one knows where love will take root. Or how it will grow.” Henry stole another tomato wedge from the worktable. “Don’t be long, Marie. For me.”
She began to protest but stopped at the sudden look of sadness in his eyes. It was a kind of sadness that she knew well. They hadn’t been close since she was a little girl. Could it be possible that he shared this same loneliness? This hurting ache for the bonds of family?
There was a limp to his step as he marched from the room. The sunlight slanting through the window burnished the gray in his hair.
Yes, it was time for a change between them. As long as he stopped trying to marry her to every West Point graduate he met.
A movement through the window caught her attention. A huge black dog slipped out of her sight on the other side of the picket fence. Night Hawk’s dog.
Night Hawk couldn’t be far. Her pulse soared. Her sadness drained away. Thinking of him and knowing he could be near sent a thrill through her that was brighter than the sun.
No one knows where love will take root. Or how it will grow, Henry had said. And he was right.
She dashed out the back door. The wind tangled her hair, and she wrestled it out of her eyes so she could see. Breathless with anticipation, she tripped down the steps and raced along the path to the gate.
But the lane was empty. There were no shadows, no dog and no dream man.
He had passed this way. She could feel it in a way she couldn’t explain. Seeing him again was only a matter of time.
Where was his will of steel? Night Hawk cursed himself as he drove the sickle through the waist-high grass. For the better part of two weeks, he’d thought of her. Every time he visited the fort to check on Devil’s injury. Each time Kammeo caught his gaze in the field. He hadn’t started working with the animal yet.
He was afraid that would make him dream of the woman more.
Fragrant stalks dropped to the mowed ground, and he swung again, taking down more grass. Sweat flew off his brow as he cut his way to the edge of the field. Winded, he leaned the blade against the fence and reached for the jug he’d left in the shade.
Cool water poured down his throat and he swallowed until it was gone. More sweat ran down his face and chest. He’d been up since three this morning making hay while the good weather held.
Meka’s low bark cut through the afternoon’s serenity. Night Hawk squinted into the sun and saw a figure crowning a low rise where earth and sun made illusion. There was a suggestion of a woman’s dark wavy hair and soft curves—Marie Lafayette.
Night Hawk cursed. Not even twelve straight hours of hard work could drive the colonel’s daughter from his mind. He grabbed his shirt off the fence’s top rail and slung it over his shoulder.
When he looked up, the illusion remained, with her long hair rippling, her green skirts swirling around her soft woman’s body—a body made for a man’s pleasure.
Want drummed in his blood.
Then Marie moved, dream became reality. She was breezing closer, bringing the sunlight with her. Meka barked again, and only a sharp command kept the dog from bounding over to greet their unwelcome guest.
Night Hawk hardened his heart. He had to send her back to the fort. It was the right thing to do—no, it was the only thing to do.
“I came to see Kammeo.” She stepped out of the sunbeams and offered him a shy smile. “Would you let me watch while you train her sometime?”
Night Hawk pulled on his shirt and drew it down over his sun-bronzed chest. “What are you doing out here on your own? It’s dangerous.”
“The bear was caught this morning. I’m perfectly safe.” She held out her hand to let the dog scent her. “I didn’t mean to interrupt your work.”
“You didn’t.” He snared the empty jug and then whistled to his dog, ordering Meka to heel. “Come, we’ll take you home.”
“I came to visit my mare. I didn’t see her in the pasture.” She lifted her skirts and breezed after him, her dainty feet hardly touching the ground. “I came through the woods along the lakeshore. I’ve never taken such a beautiful walk.”
Every step she took beat through him. Why? Why was his physical reaction to this woman so turbulent?
“The sunlight sparkled on the lake,” she continued, “and the woods were enchanting, like something out of a fairy tale. I’ve never been in such a wild place.”
She was beauty, the finest he’d ever seen and far more enchanting than this tiny piece of the world. “You’re not afraid of the wilderness?”
“Afraid? It’s amazing. Except for the meadows and the lake, and the farmers’ fields of course, the trees go on forever. I’ve never been serenaded to sleep by wolves.”
“Wait until you hear the cougars.”
“They’re musical, too?”
“Let’s just say the sound might make you miss the quiet back home.” Merriment twinkled a little in his dark eyes.
“Between the birds that hunt at night, the bugs that chirp and sound like they’re the size of bears in the dark and the wolves braying, I’m sleeping blissfully.”