In the autumn of 1944, Winning and his class switched the relative comfort of Blairs for the harsher, more ramshackle facilities at St Peterâs College in Bearsden, five miles to the north-east of Glasgow. After completing their two-year philosophy course, they were to begin their studies in theology. They had reached the Holy Land. Unfortunately, there was nothing virtuous about St Peterâs College, as Winning quickly discovered. The building was decrepit and the staff critical to the point of abuse. It was to be a miserable year, the repercussions of which unfurled far into the future.
After the striking architecture of Blairs, St Peterâs appeared rather bland by comparison. The college was approached off a main road, through a lodge gate, where it stood at the end of a long, curved drive. The atmosphere was set by the hill behind the college, branded the âHungry Hillâ on account of its poor soil. The college was packed and rooms were scarce. The strict rule of seniority meant that older students enjoyed the luxury of rooms, while Winning and his friends studied in a disused cupboard. The actual sleeping quarters, or âslum clearanceâ as they were known, had shaky walls, inadequate lighting and, along with the rest of the college, a feeling of decay. Dry rot was discovered in the refectory and so all meals were taken in the common room.
Tuberculosis had also begun to take grip. The stuffy atmosphere produced by the blackout conditions created a breeding ground for the bacillus, and a number of students fell seriously ill. In an attempt to combat the condition, the college gardener kept a goat and the sickest students were fed its milk. Frank Cullen secured his own room after the previous occupant died of the disease. As fresh air was the remedy recommended by staff, the students spent long hours out of doors working in the gardens or hiking along the âKhyber Passâ, the circuitous thirteen-mile walk along the foot of the Campsie Hills and back via the town of Milngavie.
Winning spent the time reflecting on his rapidly diminishing self-esteem. As a schoolboy on his front step, it had seemed impregnable, but any thought of achieving the papacy was replaced by the idea that at best he would be an inadequate priest. The cause of the crisis of confidence was that his education now took on a dismissive and caustic edge. At Blairs, the regime was rigorous and disciplined, but the lecturers remained friendly and encouraging. At Bearsden, there was a total separation of staff and students, they no longer joined each other at dinner, on the football field, or for a smoke over a game of billiards. The attitude of the staff was encapsulated by an incident later that winter when Winning returned from a walk in the snow and slipped in the corridor from ice on his heel just as he was passing a member of staff. Sprawled on the ground, he looked up just as the priest looked down, sneered, and walked away. âYou were a worm. They were distant, unsympathetic, and they failed to offer any encouragement,â said Winning.
Condemnation became standard teaching practice. The priest whom Winning found most ill-tempered and contemptuous was Fr John Conroy, a lecturer in moral theology, who viewed the world in terms of black and white. Frank Cullen described him as possessing a âsneering and supercilious mannerâ and although he was tough on himself, the students believed he reserved his true bile for them. In classes, he dismissed them as lazy and ignorant. If the priesthood was already held in an exalted regard, Conroy cranked it a few notches higher. He inspired fear and conjured up a spectre of trouble. Winning felt that at any moment he could be branded an unsuitable candidate and sent home. Instead, he and the entire college were sent to London.
By the summer of 1945, the college in Bearsden was in such a state of disrepair that the hierarchy decided to close it down and allow the myriad faults to be tackled simultaneously. With space at a premium across Scotland, the students and teachers were forced to relocate to St Josephâs Missionary College, close to Hendon aerodrome in the Mill Hill area of London, twelve miles from the city centre. The disconsolate air of Bearsden was unfortunately also packed up and shipped south.
The college was the principal centre of education for the Mill Hill Fathers, a religious order founded a hundred years earlier by Bishop (later Cardinal) Vaughan, and the Scots were blamed for the current overcrowding. The students were unpopular with their hosts. Talk during breakfast was banned and instead they were forced to listen in silence as a senior priest read out chunks of The Imitation of Christ in French, followed by an English translation, which was scarcely an aid to digestion.
Father Conroy, meanwhile, grew increasingly dictatorial; he launched a series of talks each Sunday evening, which Winning believed served no greater purpose than to censure the clergy. Each student was also expected to spend thirty minutes every day in manual labour. When given a choice, Winning opted for tailoring in the belief that he would be stitching âloin clothes for wee black kidsâ. Instead, he had to darn holes in trousers belonging to members of staff. Even visits to central London were prohibited, along with any visits to private homes. On one occasion, Winning broke the rule. Their daily constitutionals took Winning and his two colleagues to Edgware, close to the home of his motherâs cousin, William Canning. The three boys paid a visit, but Winning was unable to enjoy the reunion for fear that the visit would be discovered. On this occasion he was lucky. But three other friends who decided to sneak a visit to Madame Tussaudâs waxworks were less fortunate. Riding on the tube home, the trio were spotted by the vice-rector and promptly expelled.
On 13 May 1946, a workman, tackling repairs to the roof of St Peterâs College, accidentally set it alight. The fire quickly spread, gutting the main building but providing a spark of good fortune for the brighter students. In order to combat overcrowding, the decision was taken to reopen, as quickly as possible, the foreign colleges in Spain, France and Rome. Two weeks after the fire, Fr James Ward wrote to Winning with the promise of escape:
My Dear Tom,
By now you will have heard the sad news of the destruction of Bearsden College â to us here it was like the death of a dear friend. Fortunately no lives were lost, the chapel is saved â it is a strange affair, but Godâs will [and] that is exactly how His Grace has accepted it. Now, let me whisper something in your ear (not for anybody else) â Iâm glad you want to go to Rome because you are definitely going, along with seven others â you see, my undercover man has really been busy, eh? You do know that I would not joke about this, donât you? I am thrilled that you have been chosen to go to Rome and am really proud of your success â thank the Good God for his kindness to you, thank him to keep you humble as you have always been â that virtue is the secret of your success. I am sure that Jack will be delighted when I tell him and will be able to give you some knowledge of the life there ⦠Congratulations on your good fortune â donât forget your dear pal! Best love and prayers, Jim
Winning was delighted. He was bound for the centre of the Catholic universe. Rome carried not only a reputation as the training ground for the brightest of students, but held out the promise of a wonderful cultural experience. The basilica of St Peterâs, the frescos of Michelangelo, the presence of the Pope â what he had previously only read about in the inky pages of the Catholic Observer he was about to witness for real. The question he continued to nurture in his mind, however, was: could he cope?
THREE
To the City by the Tiber
âPerhaps the most intimate quality of Roman formation is the personal love and loyalty it nurtures for the Vicar of Christ and the Holy See.â1
THOMAS WINNING
When Pope Clement VIII founded the Scots College in Rome in the year 1600, his goal was more than just the provision of education for the sons of Catholic noblemen condemned to a strictly Protestant schooling since the Reformation forty years before. A leading pope of the Counter-Reformation, Clement VIII now wished for a foundry for casting Catholic agents whose ambition was to overthrow the might of Protestantism in Scotland and return the nation to the faith of their fathers and their fathers before them.
At first the Scots College, which opened in 1602 with eleven students on its roll, was principally an educational establishment where the sons of noblemen were taught good morals, piety, sound doctrine and Christian values without having to make any promise to join the priesthood. Yet when control came into the hands of the Jesuits a decade later, it took little over a year to convert the college into a seminary. The catalyst was the first anniversary in 1615 of the execution of John Ogilvie, a Jesuit hanged at Glasgowâs Tollcross for refusing to swear allegiance to the Crown.
At the time, the students were asked to sign an oath promising to receive holy orders and return to Scotland as missionaries. The popular story is that the anniversary was enough to galvanize all fifteen students to sign up, but in truth only five oaths were ever discovered. Over the past three centuries, many students have taken advantage of the collegeâs excellent education, but failed to emerge with a clerical collar.
By the eighteenth century, the college became a hotbed of Jacobitism as hopes of a restoration of a Catholic monarchy ignited. They rested on Prince Charles Edward Stuart, Bonnie Prince Charlie, who was born and educated in Rome. A legitimate heir to the throne, he was prevented from ever succeeding by the Act of Settlement, put in place in 1701 to ensure the Protestant Hanoverian succession passed over the Stuarts, though his ill-fated campaign in 1745 carried the hopes of the college students. When he returned to the city in 1766, following the death of his father, Prince Charles, he received a welcome befitting a monarch from the college rector, later summarily dismissed by the Pope, who, on grounds of Realpolitik, refused to recognize the Young Pretender.
From almost its earliest days, the Scots College has enjoyed a desirable address, sitting close to the Quattro Fontane, the road of the Four Fountains, high on the Quirinal, one of the seven hills that make up the Eternal City. The original property was knocked down and in 1869 a new college was built a few hundred yards away on a street with the gradient of a toboggan run. As the Quattro Fontane was the principal route to the papal palace, for over three centuries Scots students would watch as kings, queens and the royalty of Europe arrived to pay their respects.
In the early twentieth century, the palace was home to Italyâs King and, just before the Second World War, students watched as Hitler and Goebbels drove towards a meeting with Mussolini. One contemporary diarist at the college commented how easily he could have lobbed a bomb. It was a thought shared by the Italian partisans, who, in March 1944, planted a bomb in a bin at the collegeâs back door on the Via Rasella. The device detonated and killed thirty-two passing members of the Waffen SS. Upon hearing the news, Hitler demanded that the entire quarter be razed, but Field Marshal Kesselring, the countryâs commander-in-chief, insisted on a more emotive act of retribution. He had 320 men rounded up from the surrounding streets, marched to the Ardeatine caves outside the city, and shot â ten men for every dead German. At the time, the collegeâs caretaker, Lorenzo Martinelli, narrowly escaped with his life after hiding among the Italian orphans, now based within the college.
The lynching of Mussolini, Germanyâs defeat and the triumph of the Allies in 1945 left the collegeâs rector, Mgr William Clapperton, anxious to return to Rome from his exile in Scotland. Appointed in 1922, Clapperton was almost sixty and could be cantankerous and brisk with underlings but he was proud of his achievements at the college. The son of a Justice of the Peace from a Catholic enclave in Banffshire, he earned a First in Classics at Durham University before studying in Rome, a city he would never truly leave. At the Scots College, he bounded up the career ladder from head boy to vice-rector, then rector at the age of thirty-six.
The death of Archbishop Mackintosh of Glasgow in 1943 had robbed him of his great supporter and left the Archbishop of St Andrews and Edinburgh, James McDonald, the senior cleric in the country. A man with little respect for the college, McDonald preferred instead to send promising students to Cambridge. His intention was to maintain the college as a distant outpost populated by a few egg-headed postgraduates, but Clappertonâs resistance and a strongly worded letter from Cardinal Pizzardo at the Vaticanâs Congregaton of Seminaries produced the desired effect. In May 1946, it was finally agreed to reopen the college and in July, Clapperton was flown by the British Governmentâs Transport Command to Rome to make the necessary arrangements.
The essence of the Scots College is contained in the lyrics of the college song, written in 1900 as part of the institutionâs tercentenary celebrations. The author was John Gray, a published poet, novelist and Englishman. Gray had been a former lover of Oscar Wilde, who named his most celebrated character, Dorian Gray, after him in order to capture his affections. Accepted by the college as a mature student, Gray put away what he viewed as the errors of his youth and rose to be a canon and secretary of the Scots College society. The song runs:
From the land of purple heather, from the dear and distant north,
Scotland casts our lot together, Bonnie Scotland sends us forth, To the city by the Tiber, to the height of St Peterâs Dome, To bear the bright tradition back of everlasting Rome.
Hereâs a hand and faith behind it, hereâs my love till death shall part;
Give yours and I will bind it, with the dearest of my heart.
So land and kin forsaking, for Scotlandâs faith grown cold
For her valiant spirit aching, with the wound they wrought of old: In faith and heart united all in happy exile one, That Scotlandâs wrong be righted, so that Scotlandâs work be done.
We foot the fervent traces of those that went before,
Adorned with gifts and graces from our Alma Mater store: So sing the Careful Mother for a tribute to her worth, For to find so good another we might journey all the earth.
For aye the gaps supplying she draughts her study bands,
To keep her colours flying in the best of bonnie lands: The men she taught to cherish all she knows or ever knew; The hope that cannot perish Romans all and Scotsmen true.
To the accompaniment of these words, Winning and thirty other students arrived, under the supervision of Fr Philip Flanagan, at Romeâs Stazione Termini on the afternoon of 18 October 1946. The collegeâs vice-rector had taught them the words as an antidote to the tedium of their three-day journey â by rail from Glasgow to London, by boat from Dover to Calais, and by train once again via Paris to Rome. The devastation of central Europe, following six years of war, was visible from the carriage windows and the volume of ruined bridges and rail lines buckled by bombs reduced their progress to a crawl. Winning was to spend the first leg of the journey attempting to cheer up a fellow student, who would become one of his dearest friends. Charles âDonnyâ Renfrew had been raised by two aunts, following the death of his mother, and the day before departure one of them had been killed by a passing tram. With the date of departure fixed and the journey viewed as impossible for a solitary seventeen-year-old, Renfrew was prohibited from attending the funeral. When not attempting to raise Renfrewâs spirits, Winning was at work on his own. A painful stomachache, written off as a bad case of nerves by his parents, developed during the course of the journey into a series of stabbing pains that left him pale and withdrawn. The trainâs arrival in northern Italy was accompanied by a splitting headache, one that powdered Asket mixed with Vichy water was unable to tame. The party then stopped in the city of Turin to visit the tomb of St John Bosco, founder of the pious Society of St Francis de Sales (the Salesians). John Bosco was the patron saint of youths and author of many of the pamphlets Winning had previously sold door to door. It was while in Turin that Winning first encountered Italian food. What was in fact to develop into a lifelong love affair did not begin well: he was unable to twirl the spaghetti, the veal Milanese was mistaken for fish in breadcrumbs, and the spicy tomato sauce exacerbated his tender stomach.
The partyâs final approach to Rome was heralded by one studentâs cry that he had spotted the Colosseum, which later turned out to be a gasometer.
On the platform to greet them stood Mgr Clapperton and Fr Gerry Rogers, a tall, handsome priest from Glasgow who had arrived in Rome for further study in the field of canon law at the Roman Rota. Together as a happy band they made the short trip to the college by bus, along the Via Volturno, where British troops in khaki uniforms and bolt-action rifles patrolled the streets. At the Scots College, Lorenzo Martinelli had dusted down the cassocks he had hidden for the duration of the war. Winning was now to experience his own taste of Italian style, a uniform that consisted of a purple soutane, red sash, and black university-style gown called a soprana, an ensemble that was then topped by a black broad-brimmed hat, nicknamed the soup bowl.
Once dressed, the boys were given a tour of their new home. The kitchen and refectory were on the ground floor, the first floor housed both the library and the offices of the rector, while the second floor contained red damask-covered chairs and the valuable paintings of the drawing room. The student rooms were tucked away on the third floor. Winningâs room was small, basic and tiled in black and white. Its only accoutrements were a bed, a wardrobe, desk and chair, and an enamel basin, jug and pail. There was a solitary light in the ceiling and a cube of sunlight would sneak in through the window high in the wall. A shower room sat at the end of the hall, where each day he would collect water to wash.
Over the next few days, Winning began to familiarize himself with his new surroundings. A trip was organized by Fr Rogers to the catacombs of San Callisto and Winning, along with a few other students, wandered through the ancient passageways where the first Christians and early popes were buried. As impressive as the frescos and stucco work of San Callisto were the contents of the bakersâ windows to students starved of cakes and éclairs and subsisting on meagre food with little charm. Rationing was in force and the rector was struggling to secure adequate provisions; a situation that led to the Vatican sending over supplies of bread and pasta. Yet still the students would retire to bed hungry.
The cold was another persistent problem. The students arrived in the middle of October, when the days should have remained sunny and warm, but the worst winter that century had arrived for a long stay. The long cassocks worn by the students were valuable insulation against the cold, as were the silk stockings into which their trousers were tucked (as the college rules insisted). Until his death, Winning still possessed the silk stockings bought at great expense by his mother. He said: âIt was so cold that first year and the building was so old that the cold seeped into your bones. I remember wrapping anything I could find round my legs to keep me warm.â
In 1946, Pope Pius XII, christened Eugenio Pacelli, had resided on the throne of St Peter for seven years, since the very eve of war. A skilled diplomat, he had previously worked as papal secretary of state and negotiated concordats with both Austria and National Socialist Germany, agreements which lent Hitler international prestige at a crucial time, but which the dictator would later break. Throughout the war, Pius XII had repeatedly argued for peace, but refused to condemn the specific genocide of the Jews, preferring to protect the Vatican from possible destruction by the use of the broadest of strokes. Yet for all the condemnation that would accrue after his death, Pope Pius XII attracted universal devotion during his long life. He would become Winningâs favourite pope, a relationship triggered by the studentâs first glimpse of the ethereal pontiff, who more than any previous incumbent offered a glimpse of the divine.
The first time Winning saw Pius XII was on the Sunday after his arrival in October 1946. The students had been informed that a beatification ceremony was to take place that evening at St Peterâs, and those who chose to could attend. Winning made his way to St Peterâs Square accompanied by three other students, where they were recognized as Scots through the purple of their tunics by an elderly priest. âWonderful! You are back in Rome,â he commented, before introducing himself as a retired bishop of Malta and insisting they all accompany him as his âsecretariesâ to the front of St Peterâs Basilica. As they walked along the vast, marble-encrusted interior, crammed with chapels, altars and precious works of art, Winning was visibly taken aback, an emotion that would only deepen with the appearance of the Pope.
They waited almost an hour in the pews, where the bishop interspersed his prayers with a brief history of the building. Both students and host fell silent when hundreds of crystal chandeliers throughout the church unexpectedly sparked into life, to be followed a few seconds later by sonorous peals from silver trumpets. The Popeâs arrival was further heralded by the choir singing âTu es Petrusâ (You are Peter), while musicians played the pontifical march written by Vittorino Hallmayr, an Austrian regimental band director. The crowds then cheered. The first thing Winning saw was the plumed steel helmets of the Swiss Guard, advancing with raised halberds, the striking combination of spear and axe, and a chamberlain in traditional ruff. Then, high above their heads, seated on the Sedia Gestatoria, the great portable chair carried on the shoulders of robed men, was Pius XII. He had a rake-like appearance and the ghostly pallor of one who eats frugally. His fixed stare, shuttered behind round wire-rimmed glasses, was that of a man who could see past his audience, beyond this world and into the next. For the duration of his carriage, he was fanned by ostrich feathers and he in turn continually blessed those present by making a rigid sign of the cross. âHe had an almost mystical image. I felt overawed by the experience,â said Winning. He remembered the evening and the many future audiences he would attend, when he wrote in 1964:
Perhaps the most intimate quality of Roman formation is the personal love and loyalty it nurtures for the Vicar of Christ and the Holy See. In Rome the student lives under the shadow of Peter, close to Christâs visible head. Every student has his favourite Pope; it is usually the one he first saw and knew on coming to Rome. Instead of being simply a man or a catechism answer, the Holy Father is a living person.
Two years later, in 1948, Winning and a group of Scots students attended a private audience with Pius XII. They were not permitted to speak but instead they each knelt before him and kissed his ring as a sign of loyalty and devotion; in return, they received an individual blessing and a group photograph. Fifty-one years later, Winning fulfilled his vow when John Cornwell, the Cambridge scholar and author, published Hitlerâs Pope, a critical biography of Pius XII that viewed him as an anti-Semite who did little to protect the Jews. In a robust defence in the opinion pages of the Daily Telegraph, Winning argued that Pius XII had been fearful of further antagonizing the Nazis who would then turn the screws tighter on the Jews. âWould history have judged Pius differently if he had hurled anathemas at Hitlerâs regime, and wallowed martyr-like in the blood of his own people and the Jewish people?â2 He went even further and contacted the priest in charge of furthering Pius XIIâs beatification and offered every assistance in the defence of his heroâs crumbling reputation. This was to become a typical response from Winning who would mentally edit evidence, dismissing or reducing Pius XIIâs obvious anti-semitism and embracing the line that best supported the Church: a position that painted him as an ultra-loyalist, prepared to swallow the party line and regurgitate it when so called upon.