“Riley…”
He didn’t want to argue anymore, not when it was taking all his concentration to keep his hands off her. “I’ll see you in the morning,” he said shortly. “Do you need anything else before I leave?”
“No. I… Thank you.”
“What are friends for?” he murmured, then let himself out of her warm, pretty house while he still could find the strength to leave.
CHAPTER EIGHT
SHE SHOULD NOT BE DOING THIS.
As the hungry growl of the chain saw cut through the afternoon, Claire sat in her blasted rolling chair, Chester at her feet, sneaking another peek through the filmy curtains at her bay window, like something out of an Alfred Hitchcock movie. Only instead of spying on her neighbor burying a body in the garden, she couldn’t seem to stop watching the very attractive male currently wielding that chain saw on her downed tree limbs.
Something was seriously wrong with her.
Riley had made short work of the storm debris over the last hour. When he finished, he had poked his head in the door to inform her—not to ask, apparently, because he didn’t seem to care when she objected—that he was going to trim a few of the lower hanging limbs and any others that had been weakened by the harsh winters and heavy snows in Hope’s Crossing.
She had tried to insist she could hire a tree service, but he had only smiled and headed back out to work.
She shouldn’t be gawking at him, noticing the way his T-shirt clung to his chest and the muscles that rippled in his back as he stacked and loaded the larger chunks of branches onto her woodpile.
This was Riley. Alex’s pest of a brother, the one who used to jump around corners to scare them at every opportunity, who used to cover the spray nozzle handle on the sink so anyone who turned the faucet on would be drenched, whose favorite summer activity had been lurking in wait for them to sunbathe in the backyard so he could sneak out and soak them with the garden hose.
He was definitely all grown up, six feet and change of hard muscles.
You were the subject of many a heated fantasy… I had a crush on you from the time I was old enough to figure out girls didn’t really have cooties.
She still didn’t buy it. He had to have been yanking her chain. Still, his words had chased themselves around and around in her head since that strange conversation in the early hours of the morning.
She sighed and Chester raised his head, his eyes curious. “Sorry. Go back to sleep. Just reminding myself what an idiot I am.”
He barked once as if in agreement, then rested his head on his paws again as Claire suddenly became aware the throb of the chain saw had stilled.
She searched the backyard for Riley and found him kneeling near the trunk of her favorite old honey locust. The bright orange chainsaw case gaped open on the ground and he was fitting the saw back in.
Was he finished? Yes. A minute later, she watched him close the case and then stand up again and head for the house. Only by sheer luck and Chester fortuitously lunging out of the way, she managed to wheel away from the kitchen window just seconds before he rapped on the back door and then opened it without waiting for her to answer it.
He filled her house, large and masculine, in the space that had become rather girly since Jeff moved out.
“That should take care of your arboreal needs for a while.”
“Until the next big windstorm anyway. Thank you. I appreciate all your help.”
He shrugged. “No big deal. I had a free morning. Anyway, I’d rather be outside doing yard work than holed up in my office down at the station filling out reports.”
“Will you have some lunch? I made a couple of sandwiches.” She pointed to the table with more than a little embarrassment. The sandwiches she’d made looked clumsy and crooked on the mismatched china, all she could find in the dishwasher. She couldn’t reach up into the cupboard easily, so she’d been forced to make do.
Riley didn’t seem to notice anything wrong with her efforts. He gaped at the table and then looked back at her.
“You’re in pain and can barely move, Claire,” he exclaimed. “The last thing you need to be worrying about is feeding me.”
“I’m feeling fine. Great, actually.” She didn’t add that she had felt more useful making that pitiful excuse for a sandwich than at any time since the accident. “Anyway, it’s only a sandwich, Riley. It’s not like a five-course meal Alex would fix or anything.”
“Thank you, then,” he said after a pause. “It looks delicious and I am starving. I should probably wash some of this dirt and sawdust off first, though.”
“The bathroom’s down the hall, first door on the left.”
When he returned a few moments later, his hair was damp around his face and a couple of water droplets still clung to his neck.
He looked completely delicious. She, on the other hand, was not at her best. She had chosen a plain cotton dress with tiny sprigs of blue flowers, something easy to pull over her various medical hardware. She had pulled her hair back in a headband and even put on a little makeup, but her spruce-up efforts seemed rather pathetic.
He slid into a chair at the table and looked around her sunny, comfortable kitchen.
“I have to say, this place has really changed since the last time I saw it, back when that scary-mean Mrs. Schmidt lived here.”
“She wasn’t scary or mean. Just old and lonely.”
“Do you always look for the best in people?”
She could feel her face heat. “If you take the time to see past the gruff, you can usually find something good.”
“Maybe you should try being a cop for a day or two. That would probably change your perspective.” He picked out a pickle spear from the jar she’d managed to wrangle down off the shelf of the refrigerator and took a chomp out of it.
She sipped at her water. “No, thank you. I’ll stick with my bead store. I like being foolish and naive.”
“I didn’t call you either of those things. I actually think it’s…sweet.”
She didn’t want to be sweet. Not when it came to Riley.
“So tell me about the house,” he said. “How did you come to be the proud owner of Mrs. Schmidt’s crumbling old brick pile?”
“I’ve dreamed of living here from the time I used to walk past it on my way to school,” she confessed.
“Even as creepy as it used to look, with the grime and the cobwebs and the shutters falling off their hinges?”
“I could always see past all the dusty corners to the gem inside. The bones were good and I knew with a little elbow grease, this place could truly sparkle.”
“So you came back to town ready to make your dreams come true.”
“Something like that. Mrs. Schmidt died a few months before Jeff finished his residency and was ready to open his practice. When we started looking around for houses, her children were just a week or so from putting it on the market. Our real estate agent put us in touch with them and we bought it just like that.”
Jeff hadn’t wanted an old house. He had wanted to build their own place from the very beginning, something modern and airy, but she had convinced him this was the perfect place to raise their children.
Her own ignorance still shamed her. She hadn’t wanted to see how different—and how distant—she and Jeff were becoming over the years.
“Did you gut the whole thing?” Riley asked.
“Close enough. It took about a year of hard work to make it the home we wanted.” And while she had been stripping layer after layer of wallpaper, painting, refinishing old woodwork to create a warm, lovely home for her family, her marriage had been crumbling around her feet without her noticing.
“I can’t imagine how much work you must have had to throw at it.”
“Yes, but just like I tell my kids when they’re complaining about their homework or having to clean up after Chester, we value the things for which we have to work the hardest.”
“True enough.”
She took a small bite of her sandwich, thinking how much better it would have tasted if she could have made her famous five-spice mayonnaise, but she hadn’t been able to reach into the cupboard for the ingredients.
“Do you find the place too much to keep up since the divorce?”
“Ask me that in the fall when I’m trying to harvest the garden—assuming I can even put in a garden this year—and rake the leaves and prep the house for winter.”
“So is that a yes?”
“My mother pushed me to sell after…well, after Jeff moved out, but I couldn’t bear to lose it after we’d worked so hard on the renovations. I didn’t want to lose everything, you know?”
She hadn’t meant to say that. The words just slipped out before it was too late to call them back.
Riley’s gaze narrowed, his features suddenly dark and extremely sexy. “I’m just going to come out and say this. The man was an idiot not to see what he had.”
Goose bumps shivered down her arms at the intense look in his eyes. She stared at him for a long moment, tension coiling between them and a glittery awareness floating in the air like dust motes in a sunbeam.
She set her water glass down, wondering if her face could possibly be as red as it felt, and tried hard for a casual smile. “Thank you, Riley. That’s a very sweet thing to say.”
“Nothing sweet about it, Claire.”
His voice was a low rasp in the kitchen. Before she could stir her brain to function, to speak or move away or something, he reached out a roughened thumb and caressed her jawline. Heat surged through her, wild and fluttery, and she wanted to lean into his skin like her silly dog nudging her hand for more petting.
“Claire,” he said softly, and then his whole hand curved around her chin and he tugged her forward slightly and kissed her.
His mouth was hard, warm and tasted of the outdoors. Beautiful and slightly wild. He didn’t rush the kiss, his mouth just barely moving on hers, and everything inside her seemed to sigh a welcome.
She felt as if she had been frozen solid for years, as if she had been waiting like the mountains for the sun to finally come out after long days of darkness. She closed her eyes, relishing the scent and the taste of him, the strength and heat of his fingers, the brilliant, delicious heat bursting through her.
Don’t stop, she thought. Oh, please, don’t stop.
He made a low sound in his throat and deepened the kiss and she leaned into him as his mouth slid across hers, as his hand tugged a little in her hair….
Through the soft haze wrapping around her, Claire was vaguely cognizant of a jarring sound, a door shutting somewhere in the house and then a voice that didn’t belong in this lovely moment she was having.
“Hey, you,” she heard Alex call out from the entryway. “What’s Ri’s pickup doing outside full of branches?”
She froze for only a second, her eyes flashing open. Her gaze locked with the intense aspen-leaf green of his—now somewhat dazed—then Claire scrambled back and picked up her sandwich, trying not to notice how her hands trembled.
She was just in time. An instant later, Alex walked into the kitchen. “Hey. Here you are.”
“Right. Um. Here we are. Hi.”
Chester, who adored Riley’s sister, jumped to his feet and headed over for a little love, which she freely dispensed, though her gaze wandered from Claire to Riley.
Claire knew her best friend well enough to feel more than a little trepidation when her gaze narrowed. What could she see? Were her lips swollen? Her hair messy? She wanted to check but couldn’t with Alex still studying her with the scrutiny she usually reserved for fresh produce at the farmer’s market to serve at the restaurant.
Claire drew in a shaky breath to quickly divert her, but for some reason, Alex apparently decided to say nothing.
“Hey, little bro. This is a surprise. What are you doing here this lovely May day?”
“Claire had a little tree damage from the wind last night. I was just taking the chain saw to the worst of the downed branches.”
“Well, wasn’t that neighborly of you?”
Riley didn’t seem fazed by the slight sarcastic tone in his sister’s voice. He smiled blandly, although Claire thought his expression still looked a little shell-shocked. “I do my best.”
He had far more experience even than she did deflecting the sometimes-formidable moods of Alexandra McKnight, Claire remembered.
“Would you like a sandwich?” Claire asked quickly.
“Maybe.”
When Claire reached down to maneuver the blasted chair toward the refrigerator, Alex stopped her with a hard glare and a foot in front of one of the wheels.
“If you dare try making me a sandwich, I just might break your other leg,” her dearest friend in the world snapped.
“Oh, come on. I can make a sandwich. I made one for me and Riley.”
“Leave me out of this, please,” he said in an amused voice.
“You should be in bed, not in here babying my little brother.”
Was that what she was doing? She risked a look at Riley and found him watching her, an unreadable expression on his features.
Claire cleared her throat. “I’m not babying anyone. All I did was make a sandwich.”
“Which you don’t need to do for me. If I’m hungry, I’ll make my own damn sandwich.”
“Just for the record, I didn’t ask her for anything,” Riley said. “The deed was done when I came inside.”
“But then, you’re never one to turn down a meal. Or anything else, for that matter.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” Riley asked, his expression suddenly dangerous.
Claire didn’t want to deal with their bickering right now, when she was already feeling unsteady and weak.
“You know where everything is,” she said. “Knock yourself out.”
“I will.”
While Alex moved around the kitchen pulling out ingredients—with much more fluid, efficient movements than Claire ever could, even before her injuries—she sat petting Chester and trying to avoid meeting Riley’s eyes.
So they had kissed. What was the big deal? She had every right to kiss anyone she wanted. She could start a queue of eligible men right here in the kitchen, line them out down the sidewalk and into the street if that was her heart’s desire.
Not that she knew that many men she might be interested in kissing. Her divorce had been final for two years and she’d gone on exactly one date, an awkward affair with a widowed insurance adjuster from Tellu-ride she met in line at the grocery store.
The whole thing had been a disaster from the moment he showed up at her house with his three children in the backseat.
“I couldn’t get a sitter,” he’d apologized, so she spent the entire dinner cutting meat into pieces, wiping faces, ignoring snide comments from his bratty prepubescent daughter.
She hadn’t been eager to dip her toes into the dating pool again.
Not that she was thinking about dating Riley. It was just a kiss, for heaven’s sake. Okay, a pretty stunning, toe-curling one, as far as kisses went. But still only a kiss.
She didn’t need to explain herself to Alex, not with Ms. McKnight’s own dealings with the opposite sex. Alex specialized in the short-term relationship, dating only ski bums or guests at the resort who came into her restaurant. She pushed away everyone who wanted anything more meaningful.
“So the kids are still gone with Jeff and the ditz?” Alex asked.
“Until tomorrow. Their tickets for the show are tonight.”
Jeff and Holly were taking the children to a traveling Broadway production of The Lion King. Claire would have loved to take the kids herself, but she’d decided her budget couldn’t quite squeeze out tickets at $150 a pop. That translated into a whole lot of bead sales.
“How are you coping on your own?”
She flashed a look at Riley, who had eased back in his chair, his arm over the back of the one next to him. Claire winced, thinking of her foolish worry over the visit from the Angel of Hope and how she had flashed her porch lights to scare him off.
“I’m fine. Just trying to hang on another few weeks when I can get a walking cast and be able to dump the wheels.”
“That’s great.” Alex finished her sandwich creation, which truly looked like something she would serve at the restaurant, complete with a little carrot peel garnish.
She’d always been that way, even when they were girls. Claire smiled when she thought of all the hours they’d logged in the McKnight kitchen, making brownies or popcorn balls or snickerdoodles.
“Have you checked on Maura today?” Claire asked, aware even as she spoke of Riley’s features going taut.
“I just dropped off a basket of muffins for her.”
“How is she?”
“Hard to say. She’s numb. The way she’s acting, you’d think she was drugged or something, but she refuses to take anything the doctor is trying to give her. She says it will only anesthetize her brain and delay the pain.”
“Is someone with her?” Riley asked. Claire heard the grim note in his voice and saw the way his jaw tightened.
“Sage. Thank the Lord for her.”
Poor Sage. Claire was somewhat ashamed to realize she’d been so busy worrying about Maura that she hadn’t given much thought to her friend’s older daughter, who had lost her only sister. Smart and funny and uncommonly pretty, Sage wanted to be an architect. She was in her second year at the University of Colorado at Boulder, finishing her general education credits. This was bound to hit her hard.
“She has to go back Monday,” Alex said as she finally slid into a chair around the table. “Finals are the week after next.”
“That will be tough on Maura, when she’s alone in the house.” That had been the roughest times at first when the divorce had been finalized, when Jeff would take the kids and she would be alone here in this big house.
Worry furrowed Alex’s fey features. “Sage wanted to just bag school and stay home because she’s already missed two weeks of classes, but Maura won’t hear of it. I have to agree. I mean, she’s this close to the end, it seems foolish to throw away an entire semester. I’m just not sure how Maura will do once Sage returns to school. I think Ma will probably go stay with her for a while, if she’ll let her.”
Claire had doubts about the likelihood of that. Like all the McKnight women, Maura was fiercely independent and liked her space, even in the midst of trouble.
Riley’s features had grown increasingly wooden throughout the conversation. Now he pushed away from the table and took his plate to the sink, in the way of someone who had been trained well in a houseful of women.
“I’m sure the landfill still closes early on Saturday,” he said, his voice gruff. “I’d better head out so I can make it there in time to drop your branches for the wood chipper.”
He extended a hand out to snag his work gloves and protective eyewear from the counter, a movement that stretched his T-shirt over strong back muscles. Claire swallowed hard and quickly looked away.
“Thank you again for—” picking up the storm debris, kissing me senseless, making me feel wanted “—everything.”
He smiled but his green eyes were still troubled. “You’re welcome. Thanks for the chow.”
On his way out the door, he reached out and tugged a lock of Alex’s hair lightly. “See you, brat.”
“Bye, dork.”
He headed out the door and Claire watched him go, then turned back to Alex, only to find her friend aiming that narrow-eyed, probing look at her again.
“Okay, what’s going on?”
Claire willed herself not to flush. “What do you mean?”
“Was Ri bothering you?”
“Bothering me? No, of course not. He was helping me. You saw the truckload of branches. He’s been working in my yard for the last two hours.”
“Was that all he was doing?”
“What are you implying, Alexandra?”
“I don’t know. Call me crazy. I’m just catching a weird vibe.”
“Okay, you’re crazy,” she lied. “No weird vibe here.”
Alex didn’t look convinced and Claire held up the cast on her arm and gestured to her leg with it. “Look at me. I’m not exactly hot babe material here.”
“A little plaster wouldn’t stop Riley if he set his sights on a woman. You know how he is.”
Claire frowned. She’d heard the way his sisters talked about Riley’s reputation with women and it bothered her suddenly. More than that, it made her sad.
“Why do you do that?”
“Do what?” Alex asked around a mouthful of sandwich.
“You make him sound like some frat boy with a drawer full of condoms. He’s a decorated police officer. Maybe you ought to remember that and give him a little more credit.”
Alex blinked. “O-kay.” She drew out the word.
“I mean, what’s the difference between the two of you? You’re thirty-five years old and you haven’t dated any man for longer than two weeks in your life. You’ve got exactly the same commitment issues. In yourself, you consider it exercising discernment. When Riley does the same thing, you all think he’s a dog.”
“You implying I’m a female dog, Claire-a-bell? Because I can go there, if that’s what you want.”
Although Alex’s tone was mild, Claire could see the temper spark in her eyes. It jarred her back to her senses. Why was she doing this? Alex was her best friend. She loved her better than any sister.
“I’m sorry. I don’t think you’re a player, honey. You know I don’t. But Riley’s not, either.” She paused. “He’s ripped up by the accident and what happened. Layla and Taryn and…everything. Give him a break, okay?”
“Fine,” she said after a moment. “And just to show you what a kind, loving sister I am—not to mention what a good friend—I’m not even going to ask why you’re suddenly so quick to jump to his defense.”
Claire wasn’t sure she could answer that question, even if Alex had not decided to be so magnanimous.
“Now that’s out of the way, tell me the truth. How are you really feeling?”
Claire hadn’t given any thought to her assorted aches since Riley showed up with his chain saw two hours earlier.
“I don’t feel like I was dragged down the mountain behind a snowcat anymore.”
“That’s something anyway.”
“Now I’m just impatient to get back to work. I hate that I had to dump everything at the store on Evie.”
“She’s coping.” Alex rose and carried her plate to the sink, just as her brother had done. She went him one better, though, and started automatically unloading the dishwasher.
“I talked to Katherine this morning,” Claire said. Without the lifeline of her telephone, she would have gone crazy stuck here at home while she healed, not being able to even reach out to her grieving friends.
“I haven’t called in a few days,” Alex answered. “How are things?”
“She said they were placing a feeding tube through Taryn’s nose.”
“That genuinely sucks.” To Alex, who loved food and everything about creating it, Claire imagined a feeding tube would seem the worst trial a person could endure.
“Katherine said they’re talking about a long-term rehab facility for her now. Doctors said they can give her another week at the hospital while the rest of her injuries continue to heal and if she doesn’t come out of the coma by then, they’ll move her.”
So much sorrow. She couldn’t bear it. She had to do something for her friends to ease the pain a little, but she had no idea what. The usual gestures of a warm meal or a lovely card seemed wholly inadequate. She needed to do more.
“Enough of this,” Alex said, her voice firm as she closed the now-emptied dishwasher. “Let’s do something fun. I don’t have to be at the restaurant until five tonight, so I’m hanging out here with you until then.”
“You don’t have to babysit me.”
Alex raised an eyebrow. “Who said I was talking to you? I’m here to visit Chester.”
At his name, her basset hound lifted his head off the rug and gave Alex the happiest look he could muster out of his droopy eyes.
“That’s right, you gorgeous cuddle monkey. You’re such a good boy. Yes, you are.” Chester obediently rose and headed over to Alex to nudge against her leg. “Chester and I are going to snuggle up and watch Charade, aren’t we, you?”